I am still in love with my hubby part I

Tidak perlu mencari teman secantik Balqis jika diri tidak seindah Sulaiman..
Mengapa mengharap teman setampan Yusuf jika kasih tidak setulus Zulaikha..
Tidak perlu diri menjadi seteguh Ibrahim jika diri tidak sekuat Hajar..
Mengapa diharap teman hidup seistimewa Khadijah jika diri tidak sesempurna Rasulullah.

Each of these words above really touched me.... I don't know why.... i am really touched by these words...Maybe, after reading these words, i am realized that how cruel i am to my hubby.......After 2 years i've been married, every week must be something that i am not satisfied with my husband... i do love him....since when i can not remember....that's only question that i still can not answer it yet till now....but the things that i notice... i love to write a letter to him when i was in matriculation college...i love to wait a letter from him.....on that time i still deny that i'm in love with him...maybe on that time i am "syok sendiri" with this guy...called Aziehan....He has a very good looking....like Chinese mata sepet ma... but the reality that i've to face that he do not like or interested on me....maybe when we meet, we feel like malu2.....i only like him because he has physical attraction...nothing more than that...we only communicate only twice.. how can we know that he like me or i feel in love with him... but one thing that i notice.. when i heard his voice...i tend to find bad attitude of him... maybe the way that orang JAWA talk, i did not like so much... eventhough i am jawa from i born till now....he222 the moral is we are difficult to find a perfect soulmate of ours.

I perform solat Istikharah a week to know the perfect guy for me and to find a soulmate of mine...but i keep on dreamt that my hubby is the one...And one more sign that i notice.. when we arrange for a date at KLCC, i felt so eager to meet him... I bought very pretty blouse and tudung just to look beautiful on that day that i meet him.... maybe ... he is the perfect guy for me....